This is who I am

You can get better treatment elsewhere?
Then by all means
please go

This is who I am
This is the stage I'm in
I've released the dream
of being perfect
and pleasing you and you and you too

I'm selfish
self-absorbed
more than others
sure maybe

I don't understand you or her
and I realize now
understanding is a waste of my time

I can't mend what you see as cracked
because I don't see the fissure
I can't give you humanity
when I'm trying to locate my own

so either you meet me here
blemishes and all
take me however present i can be right now
or you bail
either way is fine