What a coincidence

This is the Daily OM article that showed up in my inbox tonight.  How appropriate and fitting given the lesson I learned earlier today:

August 25, 2010
You Are the One You Are Waiting For
Turn to Yourself

"The outer world serves as a mirror and our inner world has a magnetic force that draws to us what we need to evolve.

We spend a lot of our lives looking for role models, mentors, teachers, and gurus to guide us on our path. There is nothing wrong with this and, in fact, finding the right person at the right time can really help. However, it is important to realize that in the absence of such a figure, we can very safely rely upon ourselves. We carry within us everything we need to know to make progress on our paths to self-realization. The outer world serves as a mirror. Or to use another metaphor, our inner world has a magnetic force that draws to us what we need to evolve to the next level. All we need to do to see that we already have everything we need is to let go of our belief that we need to seek in order to find.

The path of the spirit is often defined as a journey with a goal such as the fabled pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. In this metaphor, a person begins a search for something they want but do not have and then they find it, and there is a happy ending. However, most of us know that getting what we want only makes us happy for a moment, and then the happiness passes until a new object of desire presents itself. Joy is a permanent aspect of our inner selves and is not separate from us at any point. We do not have to travel to find it or imagine that it resides only in the body of another. In fact, what the best teachers will do is point out that this very precious elixir is something we already possess.

So when we find ourselves on our path, not knowing which way to turn and wishing for guidance, we can turn to ourselves. We may not know the right answer rationally or intellectually, but if we simply ask, let go, and wait patiently, an answer will come. The more we practice this and trust this process, the less we will look outside ourselves for teachers and guides for we will have successfully become our own. 

Emerging...

I've been slowly working my way back to feeling better.  I've been little-by-little taking better care of myself.  (Just stopped writing to take my vitamins...bleck.  Anyone have a suggestion for a multivitamin that isn't the size of a horse pill?)  I'm been setting limits on what and who I allow into my life.  My time is important.  I want it spent in specific ways, ways defined only by myself.  I know what my priorities are, I have for a long time...just haven't been holding myself to them enough.  Every single priority on my short list requires a new way of being.  That idea can be daunting.  I think I always needed time to get to this place where I could take a step in a new way, in a new direction, and leave the past behind.  I'm not the type of person who can be forced to do things.  I'm stubborn and staunch in my stance I know, but I'm not above changing my position and realizing and admitting that I was wrong or that there is a better way of thinking/approaching something.

Alongside this I've decided it is time to state out loud what it is I want truly from a romantic relationship.  Over many years I've wondered to myself certain questions such as: Could I date someone of another religious background who strongly practiced that religion?  And every time I have done that the person who would help me answer that question has shown up in my life.  A month ago in this writing space I stated that it was time for something new.  And right after I declared that here it showed up in my life.  It may not be in the exact way that fits me, but I cannot miss acknowledging the fact that what I asked for was then presented to me.

Here was my Note from the Universe a few days ago:

Invariably, when big dreams come true, and I mean BIG, Samosas for One, there is a total metamorphosis of one's life. Their thoughts change, their words change, decisions are made differently, gratitude is tossed about like rice at a wedding, priorities are rearranged, and optimism soars.... Yeah, they're almost annoying.

You could have guessed all that, huh?

Would you have guessed that these changes, invariably, come before, not after, their dream's manifestation?

Samosas for One, invariably means always.